F*ck Derby

I don’t know what came over me. During derby weekend I bid $75 on horses 2 and 17 lol, from the five years I have been living in Indiana I have never felt any interest in derby or gambling for that matter but a few of my customers have expressed confidence in several horses since they had trained them and the father of one of the horses was some triple winner from a past derby, It felt like a no brainer and I thought hey, I will shoot my shot…maybe ill make some extra money… 

nope.

 I felt like a fool, lol. I will surely not do that again!

On a better note, the semester is over!!! Yay! 

I feel very proud of the work I put out this year so far, every semester I learn new skills and I also gain more confidence working with clay and the technicalities. 

hi.. hmm.. i made this lol

I know it needs a lot more work and that she is not perfect but I am so impressed with how it turned out and with me too! I persevered and kept pushing even when I wanted to give up and take easier routes.

Her! One is more impressive than the other!

The decision to add a nose ring to each bust was a very last-minute thought, which I enjoy very much, I like the idea that my work or busts would have that identifying factor.

FALL 2024 Ideas:

-More reliefs and sculptures

-Losing fear of color

-Chains pls

-larger?

-meaningful work?

-Validate my own feelings and experiences?

-Fearless Hailey, yes.

This is cringe art from 2020 xd, 

I know it is awful but I am hoping it will bring some clarity or a concrete meaning to my attraction to making chains, This is the first apparition of chains in my “art” when it was definitely a weird moment for all of us, I can remember some of the feelings and thoughts I had when making this.

For next semester I do want to obviously refine my skills, but I also want to be more intentional and write about each piece and emotion if and when necessary,

I am a very emotional person but as the years pass I notice I struggle to show my emotions and to talk about them. I have been hiding under a shell for protection for way too long, I am now afraid I might become a turtle. 

I used the second bust of the leaning lady to dump a lot of physiological/emotional trauma, but I didn’t know how to properly put those thoughts and experiences into words to share with a group or how it would be taken

It might be stupid but I wanted that piece to be like Monalisa’s smile. It’s easy to see that the girly is distraught, and quite literally shattered, but you can also notice her with a slight smile and a sense of peace as if she finally processed through it all and is finally happy. 

I need to find a way to quiet down my brain and gather my ideas so i can write about this type of topic and share it with a group.