I feel like I have a million and one deep thoughts rushing through me; some get lost, smooshed by other ones, or lost in translation, brain to mouth, Spanish to English.
The other day I was thinking about how much I enjoyed writing poems when I was younger, but then I realized I didn’t, lol. What I actually enjoyed was thinking and reflecting on life and my often volatile emotions. So I was like: ok, cool… but who the f just thinks? And then I remembered about all the people whose jobs and contributions to history were to literally just think, to overanalyze shit, and to find some sense in this weird world we’re in. So I guess, by definition, that makes me a philosopher?… of sorts. The shittiest philosopher ever, one who struggles to share their thoughts!

The one nobody wanted and nobody needs lol

me when playing ball with Plato and the bois

Sometimes I feel able to dissect emotional moments and thoughts with ease; and it has helped me to slowly empathize more and more with my family’s past and present. This has allowed me to get through some of the years of built-up feelings.

With this in mind, I can say that my work is in a way a form of communication between me and my family and ancestors, and a way of saying, “Hey, I see you and your struggles, and I understand now, you were doing the best you could, the only way you knew, and I am sorry for being so quick to judge.” and maybe it is not even about the finished work itself, but the building process, the deep thought transit and the conversations while doing so.

Now, this semester, I have a specific line of work I want to make, vessels of my ancestors, and I strive to resemble them as much as I can.
As for the visual part, I keep getting stuck on the details of what to show the viewer. What story do I want to tell with each individual vessel? How to tie it all together?

I struggled (still am lol) to find a way to tie me and my present to my family’s past. I have a more clear idea of how to achive that, but I’ll show you sketches in the next blog 😅 this one got too long.

byeeeee