I am excited to start working on this second vase, I started building it during class, last Thursday and right now it is halfway there, When I started building it I had in mind a vessel with a different shape so it could be different from the first one, but I was in automatic mode and started building a very similar shape. I am not mad about it, but in the future, I want to try something different.

I have been searching for pictures of my childhood and it has been very interesting to look back and “analyze” me. I have felt guilted before for having a hard drive filled with old pictures, and often go back to reminisce about the past and somehow comfort myself doing so. And well, this last week I was going through all of the pictures and as you can imagine they are not very well organized lol, so I went on a deep dive to gather images from ages 1-9 (before I moved to Mexico City), during my search I felt an overwhelming amount of compassion and love for me, for the little girl in the pictures trying her best to keep everybody happy, so much that she grew up not knowing how to make herself happy.
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I am ready to go back to therapy, I have used IUS counseling services before and while it is amazing that it is something free and always available to us, the therapists are often there for no longer than a year, so it’s hard, it takes a lot to open up about shitty things and then having to do it again, and again and again to different people is less than ideal.

Anyway, this was kinda emotional, but I honestly feel really good, I feel proud of myself and I know the little girl is too. c:

El Fin.